Again!Again!
” I will wait for you/I’ll promise you/lucky I’m in love with my best friend”, is a sample of the wonderfully simple song “Lucky”, performed by Jason Mraz and Colbie Caillet.
Recently I was on Jazon Mraz kick and started listening to a lot of his songs. Triggering all sorts of memories, from playing in the beach (the remedy), freshman year in college (make it mine) and so on. Lucky stuck out.
I know I am lucky for having had the experience of being in love with my best friend. I often think of those few years spent together. My life is enriched beyond most people’s dreams because of that time. On the flip side I am fortunate to not be in that relationship anymore, as I later learned parts of his mind that were too dark and oppressive in nature and only could lead to my continual pain had he not broken it off.
I went to Vegas (hello lady luck) a short time later. I met M. that Vegas weekend. I wasn’t looking for any man, be it a one night stand (definitely a no no), fling, rebound or a relationship. In fact, I didn’t even seriously consider M. ; I was still licking my wounds. M. turned out be my lucky charm. He was a helpful reminder of the sincerity and honesty, and GOOD in a person. We began dating month later, with his full understanding of where I stood emotionally.
Life as usual happens and M and I are no longer together romantically, but stay good friends. There is no monumental sadness, regret or anger that lingers between us. M. will always remain a lucky charm for me.
I begin this new year with unbridled exuberance and optimism. I am continuing with my graduate studies and making sure to balance my sanity with physical activity. My brother and I are in the midst of planning for our trip to New Zealand; pouring over city data, continuously looking for cheap deals, and debating between “great walks” and regular tramping. I am relishing in the fact that wonderfully loving and amazing family, and friends surround me. And a pretty darn cool cat who continues to be my daily companion, causing me to break out into laughter after I catch her being sneaky or just plain cute.
So Mr. Right, I know you’re out there, but right now I am truly happy and content with not knowing you right now.
- Ms. Right
“When I fall in love I take my time/
There’s no need to hurry when I’m making up my mind/
You can turn off the sun but I’m still gonna shine”- The Remedy by Jason Mraz
