Cake and Cocktails never tasted so good

I took the damned GRE today and have to say i was a bit put out by myself. I studied about two days….ya ya i know i got the book and what not and still only did about two days worth of studying. I did well enough to meet the bare minimum for grad school, which is the sad part. I could have done better-here I am actually not pushing myself. wtf?! now i can say that i didn’t push myself because i am afraid of the future and its easier to not try than fail, or i could say i was just so damn busy that i didn’t have time to study. or i can just flat out say i didn’t push myself and that’s it.

I have/need to find some motivation.

oh wow. So here it is. TexAS or Korea? Where do I really want to go? Do I want to live in Austin or do I wish to live in Seoul. Normally I would say Korea but, I wont deny that there are certain pulls in Austin. Or so I thought. until i realized that one of my reasons really should not be a reason and now the choice between Korea and Texas is harder to make. this makes no sense. I shouldn’t write when I am drugged up on Nyquil. glad i’m not driving!